standinbyalltheway

2005-08-08T17:09:00.000+08:00

HELLOOS` PEOPLE. LONG TIME NO SEE YEA. IM LIKE SO TOTALLY IN AGONY NOT BEING ABLE TO GO ONLINE. RAHH-

2005-07-25T14:47:00.000+08:00

this is stupid.

2005-06-22T16:29:00.000+08:00

we love rainer(:

we love thunder(:

we love lighter(:

we love tanner(:

we love sunner(:

we love mooner(:

we love starer(:

tenor + tanner = tender:D

2005-06-05T17:32:00.000+08:00

eeeha.

lou`s house now. later cheryl`s house.

lou wants to take pic with mrHIPPO. with her tennis looking self today.

and she`s taking me in stupid poses.

i look ugly today la.

some stupid red polo and denim LONG shorts.

we were so bored today.

caregrp was ha.

we played this game. then mic was saying i was like cheapo. big time spenders. and. ya. shopperholic.

after church. we went shaw macs. then tp. then j8. then her hse.

and we sinned at j8 LA.

but it felt great.

shopping.

cheapo.

big time spenders.

2005-06-05T14:50:00.000+08:00

turned off.

i hate ppl who are like so fake and stuff.

which is their true self. i have no idea.

i don know which what who when to believe whatever they`re saying.

like. contridictions.

yea.

whatever is all i can say.

go work in 77th street. and getalife.

please.

like g r o s s.

-bawl my eyes out.

erg.

yucks.

ihate.

2005-06-05T14:20:00.000+08:00

balloon hat festival thing yesterday was alrights i guess.

but.

i think the organizers are a bit shit.

play under the HOT sorching weather.

gwad.

i almost fainted.

yea. and our section ppl were like dying.

yani was like heat stroking. then yilan was like giddying. and i was both. just that i stood there still like a pillar resting. so. i seemed fine.

sk was the only cool headed one. fanning us and stuffs.

then val was. no where to be seen.

rahha.

but overall it was enjoyable la.

cheering and dancing like MAD dogs.

it was hell loads of fun.

and as usual.

yani and sk pang sehh us to go home.

like ehh. second time already la.

but we had fun eating at jackson. thought we were like sneezing and complaining.

it was alrights.

imagine this. three ppl sharing a small plate of noodles.

yea. that was us.

and some desert and stuffs.

flute section pigging out again.

we must start our no junk plan SOON.

we`ve been putting it off since the start of this week.

rahha.

i will miss val.

-pouts.

flutesection`o5 rocks.

2005-05-22T14:49:00.000+08:00

can michelle stop playing the ~~sadd~~ song on the piano.

2005-05-22T13:11:00.000+08:00

at lou`s house again.

with stupid michelle, with the idiotic act guy hair.

gay i`l say.

hahhs. nahhs. cute in a way.

to nic`s hse later for bbq.

erg. mic just messed up my hair on the bed.

camera no battery.

rahhs.

we are having fun.

2005-05-19T17:24:00.000+08:00

i lied to you. ~~no.~~ ~~i lied to myself.~~

2005-05-18T15:11:00.000+08:00

fullstop. -

2005-05-16T00:14:00.000+08:00

towned today.
in shorts.
goodness.
ugly creature in raggs rocking town.
but not with my usual girlaye partner though.
with my. -who`s fault. your fault. f you.- partner.
ahas.
thanks for cheering me up with the spastic dog thing.
though i was like torturing you.
so called.
yakks.
sorry. but i cant betray the trust she have in me.
so i must keep my mouth shut.
budd i want the lyrics though.
x)

2005-05-12T22:18:00.000+08:00

i feel like a total failure.

loser.

i regret abt the things i`ve done. and not done.

i feel like shit.

im not worth it.

not worth anything.

anyone.i`ve let you down.

i donnoe whadd to do.

2005-05-12T21:23:00.000+08:00

i hate dealing with ppl in my life leaving me. -bye girls. see yall next time. nono. no more next time. there might be no more next time. today might be the last. sir was a good guy. yet we disappointed him many times. he`s really cute in a way. with his 'mouse' joke. i cant believe this is all happening. at first i din thought much of him leaving. budd now.come to think of it. we wont be seeing him in cedar anymore. he wont be buying his fave kokocrunch. or watermelon juice. me and yilan cannot laugh over his funniness. his bigbig pocket. his see-thru shirt. and. ya.. stuffs.. sighs. budd life is just like that. and cherish ppl before they leave me.

2005-05-04T21:58:00.000+08:00

jeralyn's mid years are coming!

so she currently cant come online.

her life been's fine.

thanks for caring.

ha.

she'll be back soon.

do you miss her?

i miss her too.

hubby says:

raaahs.

hundred.

i love you*

2005-04-27T16:33:00.000+08:00

whadds wrong now.

i dint even say anything.

torn.

no idea.

i don want all this to happen.

in anyway. shes just still my friend.

im not shielding her.

now. ive lost a friend. and you.

do you know im hurting too.

stop assuming whadd i did.

i did not do anything wrong.

im getting tired of always trying to clear things up. when they did not even happen.

its pure friendship.

whyye cant you believe me.

just for once.

my heart and soul.

gone. with the wind.

void of emotions.

2005-04-15T12:43:00.000+08:00

yakks.

someone is sick.

get well soon okaes.

whoosh.

i carnt wait for tml. !

b1 and b2.

rocking the beach.

((:

2005-04-12T17:24:00.000+08:00

booboos.

sad day.

syf's over.

daddy says: its okay. (:

you can try again.

its not the end of the world.

it will be different.

daddy loves mommy.

mommy loves daddy.

2005-04-07T12:39:00.000+08:00

good day. bad day.

(:(

whadd do you see.

a happy face. or a sadd face.

eeeks.

nayys.

im supposed to smile like an idiot. together with cheryl chewwy.

two happy smelly pigs. rocking town. walking the wrong way. chewing mrs field`s brownies. eating nutella bread. eating takopachi. eating portugese egg tart. eating the kuehtutu. piggingout. carrying our ripcurl bag. wearing our green flare skirt. hurting at the bottom of our feet. our heart. the stupid poke poke thing at our ribs. the wind messing up our hair. "ahhs. the damn wind messing up my damn hair" quote cheryl. then. "screams. look *upp there !!"

yupps.

thats the life of two happysmellypiggs.

(:( :(:

((:* ((:"

trademark smilies.

ilovelaopo.

*mwahhs.

when the mood goes up.

it wont stay up there for long.

everything crashes down.

unexpected.

in less than a day.

ive never been so ----- since like. last year. yeah. according to nezzy.

i was damn -

nobody realizes.

nobody does.

sighs.

announcement: tonghua is a song that makes me angry.

on the bus home yesterday. i realized that tonghua is pianren de.

budd. the idiotic contradicting me still listens to it.

i listen to that damn song everynight to sleep.

how ironic.

errgggg.

eat shit.

(:(

i see the negative side.

poof.

2005-04-01T15:51:00.000+08:00

topsy-turvy

life.

2005-03-24T08:53:00.000+08:00

where is my cheryll.

shes also suffering.

physically.

her eyes are swollen.

she accidentally ate the medicine which she was allergic to.

shes not in school today.

i need her.

-sobbs.

i have no idea whadd to do.

)):

2005-03-23T10:06:00.000+08:00

yeahhs. the guy1s not messaging me anymore.

youure happy rights.

fat mean piggy.

jumps jumps jumps.

-beams

im happy.

im not.

im happy.

im not.

erg.

moodswings.

you pig.

2005-03-21T09:02:00.000+08:00

whooosh. im back . for now.

wed i was out at wildwildwet with cheryl !!

we are like totallie burned out now.

peeling like mad.

yupps.

then the synergiz conference and the planet shakers concert totallie rocked. !!

i was at downtown east for the past four days straight.

hohos.

rocked rocked rocked.

the last day was mad. the queue for the concert was super darn long.

ahhs. pig.

long story.

yeahs.

then yesterday went to do homework.

at toapayou.

ahhahhas.

graffiti.

ahhs.

i still haven decided..

2005-03-19T21:03:00.000+08:00

yes yes. jerallyn currently cant blog. her computer's gone insane. (: she will be back. soon.

2005-03-12T15:24:00.000+08:00

whoosh.

slacking at lou`s hse now.

yeahhs.

we were supposed to go acs[br] fair.

budd. we were darn late laas.

yupps.

so sorry laopo. cannot make it.

budden. when we were walking to the bus interchange after lunch.

i met my baobeii.

ehh hehhs.

rocks. rocks.

we came back to her hse to change clothes.

okaes. we are so late for yf laas.

bleahhs.

slept so late last night.

cause i was talking over the phone.

with who ?

holiday homework kills me alreadie just looking at them piling on my darn table.

the next whole week would be a hectic week.

no time no time.

no time for you.

2005-03-07T12:20:00.000+08:00

went with nezzy to cut her haiir.

with prince and my ex.

yeah. i realized that our song is ocean`s shoshosho. [or however you spell it] yupps. it belongs to us. only us.

in the past alreadies laas.

both of us were like kidds. standing at the mrt front.

shouting like we were on some rollercoaster ride.

i love those days.

waited darn long for that hairdresser. -man.

his name so cute.

yeahhs. we sat there for abt 2 hours or more waiting for him laas.

yeah. then ex left first.

oooos.

wangzi : so sorry.

i scared you.

i just cannot control myself.

thanks for being there.

for hugging me. and your arm around me.

and knowing that someone cares.

although you dint do anything.

don feel pathetiic or whadds okaes.

i will feel darn badd.

wo hao aiinii- o

(:*

yuqian.

shi you shang le wo de xin.

not i shang le your xin okaes.

you made me so sadd.

both of us shang le each other`s heart.

)': :'(

you are not more mature than me.

you are only a bit older than me.

OLD.

whooosh.

funny conversation in the middle of the night.

my one and only tortoise.

ke aii de pigg zai xiiang slow.fat.short de tortoise oo.

i tried to put up that upturn smile.

it was hard. budd still i believe i can do it.

2005-03-06T18:33:00.000+08:00

i cannot breathe properly.

the world is pressurising me.

i donnoe whadd to do.

dilema.

to do or not to do.

stay or walk away.

blurt everything out or bottle up.

cry or ren.

smile or frown.

im scared.

-sobs.

2005-03-06T02:13:00.000+08:00

when im down. i do idiotiic stuffs.

i eat. i shop.

to not think too much.

to not dwell on matters.

bought stuffs that i dont need at all today.

hairbands. shorts.

ate like a total pig.

lunch ; tutu cake. mrs fields brownies. juice. takopachi.

dinner ; ate at shatec rosella outlet restaurant.

can i stop it.

this whole week was filled with shoppiiing and eating.

someone said to me ; 'dont cry okaes. everyday you talk to me over the phone. everyday you cry. '

i do not okaes.

i dont cry.

since when did i cry.

no way.

yes..

no way..

2005-03-05T01:29:00.000+08:00

its not your fault. its just me. i need to think. i don wann to let go. budd. circumstances. it sucks. i dont wann to say. cause i dint know how to put it in words. when the times comes. till then will i say.
my heart hurts. literally. i can feel the darn aching of my heart. i feel like pulling it out or something. to reduce and take away the pain that i feel. nothing is going rights. whadd happened. its all my fault. i doubted. and think too much. its not you. reallie its not you that is the problem. there is just something so wrong with my mind. everything is swirling ard. im keeping the tears. some spilled out. budd much would remain there.
stop drinking water and therefore there would be no tears to come out. vitual play.

2005-03-05T00:17:00.000+08:00

pang sehh-ded yilan. supposed to go j8 pierce ear.

budden i decided to be with my laopo cheryl.

cause we both needed each other.

so after sch. we went j8 walkwalk.

took neos. eat eat eat.

and got scolded the 4 letter word for no reason.

yupps. then we sat at mac.

and started talking and confiding and advicing and stuffs like that.

we talked alot.

abt her stuffs. abt my stuffs.

she gives reallie good advice.

and her point of view is like. whadd i don understand. she can see it.

then for donnoe whadd stupid reason.

i did whadd im not supposed to do.

it just kept flowing and flowing and flowing.

i cannot stop myself.

flooded the whole table.

poor cheryl. she dint know whadd to do.

budd her being there was enough.

and her supply of tissues.

eventually. i stopped asap. cause it was like so weird for cheryl.

i reallie love you so much laopo.

i donnoe whadd would happen if you were not with me.

cheryl. don cry also okaes ?

at macs. you looked like you going to burst into tears.

*huggs.

i want you to be happy laopo.

look for those missing pieces of your faiirytale.

and when the picture is perfect.

i want that broken smile of yours to shoo.

substituted by the real smile that comes form within you babe.

and i will smile with you. for you. (:

yuanting rocks.

thanks for that sms. and that part of your blogpost.

we haven winkked in so long.

lim-my.

(:*

2005-03-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

thanks all who patroniised 2/o`s italian food stall today.

sorry to those who preordered and dint get their food.

we had a food shortage. and the crowd was overwhelming.

we dint had calamari and biscotti for the upper sec.

only linguini and baked potato left.

we rejected many of the lower sec girlies.

the preorder list was like so long. budd i bet we dint even sold to half of them.

i think our total profit cannot even reach 200bucks.

it could have even be higher than that.

our cost was like over 300bucks.

we had like so much biscotti dough left.

and mrsfoong refused to let us bake the remaining.

our group did 2 servings.

the other group only did one serving.

and one serving is alot !!

argh.

we got complains. from 4ppl to mrs woo.

ehhs. like whadd the heck okaes.

we not professional cooks okaes. we carnt garrentee that everybody will like whadd we cook.

we just do our part in ensuring that the food is edible and healthy to eat.

complain complain complain.

you think so easy to do this job ahs.

we were like cooking and cooking for the first 2 periods.

then third period was eng. we had had to go back to class as soon as the bell rung. cause we had to do a timed assignment.

and everybody was in no mood laas.

cause the food was not even done yet.

so we just like did it asap. then those who finished first just ran down to cook.

the bell rung for first recess.

and the stall was not set up yet. we were still like cooking !?!

yeahs. then when we got there. the gate of the stall cannot open.

waliaos. then like ppl outside was like banging?! like totallie rowdy and boistrous okaes.

then ppl started coming in from the back.

and they were like. -ehhs. where is our food arhs. we preordered lehhs

like whadd the shit kaes.

then i felt so badd turing those ppl down when the food was sold out.

so sorry yaas? (:

then some food toppled over when we were pushing the food into the stall.

and shruti and zhiyun was like there oh shitting. and dint know whadd to do. then i had to like give instructions to them?

i was like. -shruti push the food in. zhiyun. clear up.

then i was helping shruti push in. then zhiyun like.

aiyah. nevermind la.

goodness. that one person from our class darn irritating.

made me cry. like whadd the heck.

i was supposed to be angry. not crying.

aiyah. only teared.

sorry to those whom i gave attitude to.

i was a fat pig laas.

so stressed up and. how to say. stuck.

ahhs. whadd rubiish la.

ohhs. ms nadia rocks.

she damn cute laas. and she treated us darn hao.

she never scold us. she never scream and yell at us.

she encouraged us and helped us.

not like some others.

rahhs.

pinghui rocks too.

we dint know whadd was the amt of sugar to use.

then everybody was so flustered.

pinghui donnoe do whadd. she got the measurements.

omg. she like so rock la.

and she never left the home econs once.

she was like helping and washing up.

ahhs. limpinghui rocks.

cooking was fun.

mag was throwing the cranberrys and raisins into my bowl and nezzy`s bowl lil by lil.

then we were like molesting the dough?!

darn gooey and sticky and... yuckks !

budd its darn nice. though i dont get to try it.

it smells darn tasty !!

tan han kiang also rocks.

cause he let us off the last period 25 mins earlier for us to eat.

whooosh.

aiyahhs. eveyone is like blaming each other?

so not bonded.

2005-03-02T23:20:00.000+08:00

the day when i dont drop any more tears. it means i reallie dont care anymore.

imgivinguphope.

2005-03-01T23:49:00.000+08:00

i did the stupiidest thing today.

i left my so beloved ez link card at home.

its like i was rushing cause i was late- like duh. then i forgotten to take.

then after i reach the bus stop then i was like oh strawberry honey ice tea

rahhs. like im supposed to go out. which equals to needing the card badly. sheeesh. then i borrowed from someone laas.

aniwaes. i need to announce something :

maths class test ; 17/40 failed

higher chinese ; 27.5/60 failed.

however. for chi. yulaoshi counted my marks wrongly. so i passed. barely scrapped through laas. 30.5 xD

lit common test ; 21/25. passed ! (:

then geog test today was. erg.

i forgotten everything abt plantation agriculture canns.

test started late. ended late.

so was late for the movie.

went out with wenn peiting and lily.

we walked from cine to ps then back to cine.

long story laas.

whoosh. and i saw mavis at ps. shes still so tall.

and. i saw christina at cine. budd i think she din see me though. i suddenly spotted her. ahas.

then we saw brigette. in cine.

yupps. so in the end we watched howl`s moving castle. in cine.

nice. so kawaii. -quoted from the show. ahas.

yupps. reached home late. yes. got scolded. whadds new rights.

im kinda getting numb to all these feelings.

like whadd the heck. you dont know whadds going on in my life.

everyday coming home is like total torture to me.

whaddever.

anyway. did i say how much i aii my wangzi.

she rocks.

i like have no choice budd to tell herr stuffs.

budd wangzi. to tell you the truth.

whadd i said aint all true.

i want to tell you the truth.

budd. i still want to bluff myself.

i will tell you everything someday.

neways. loveyoubabe`

(:*

im disliking my life.

so screwed.

like whaddever.

go away.

-pushes everyone away.

- jeralyn cries. inside.

2005-02-27T18:47:00.000+08:00

sat. 21o2o5

went to nicholas`s hse for combined care grp outing.

met louisa before that. and went to eat at deli.

rahhs.

met the others. and obviously faithians are always late.

lou and i happened to be there early.[a few mins later] cause we were alreadie at tp.

yadaas.

his hse was a darn far walk from the interchange laas.

my thighs felt like they could break..

supposed to play some water games in the pool.

budd nahhs.

cause many girls bufangbian.

only left me and lou. and rach. budden she got no costume.

so. we din play in the end !

and the security guard was weird. and irritating too.

ooohs. we played dodgeball.

yeahhs.

and i like donnoe whyye went to run into the way of the ball.

so im dead.

then played yf`s fave game.

captain`s ball.

whooosh~ it was fun laas.

yes. although me and lou were on diff teams. we still laughed abt the same stuff that happened. and giving each other -looks.

bwiahahas.

after like an hour or so. we went up to his hse.

and please. the guys were sitting in front of the sushi plate.

and swoooning over it.

everything ended abt 7++ 8 ?

yuppers.

then lou cheryl and me went to j8 to walkwalk.

cheryl was so dreading that place laas.

covering her face and walking ard.

hohos.

whadd did we do there ?

hrmms.. walkwalk. din buy anything though. broke.

ahhs. ate at the food court.

the person behind us was gross la.

showing censored areas.

goodness.

then we took pics with my cam !

im gonna post lou`s fierce looking pic here soon.

watch out yaas?

today.220205

omgomgomgomg.

darn irritating laas.

lou should know.

photocopycat ness.

goodness.

kill mee.

sighs.

whaddever laas.

get a life babe.

baby.

in less than 24 hours youure back.

to straighten out my thoughts.

i carnt wait.

to feel that tingle down my spine.

that chilly feeling when i see you.

and i just smile to myself. or to the comp. or to my stupidd handphone.

hope youure allrights yaas?

no injuriies. no paiin.

no smellysmelly pigg !!

2005-02-25T11:57:00.000+08:00

25th feb.

25th jan.

happy one month.

for you. or for me. or for both.

i dont know.

2005-02-25T11:53:00.000+08:00

i should have just pon sch today.

a total waste of my time.

and the cab fare.

goodness.

yes. i cabbed to school for no reason. though i was not going to be that late.

suppose to reach sch at 845.

left the hse at 815.

usually with my usual speed of walking. i should have reached school just in time.

however. with the inability and immobility of my thighs.

i slowly strolled to the main road. slowly raised my hand.

and there came the cab. instantaneously.

and please. the cab driver dint know the way.

and i like have to lead him.

please. my chi sucks.

i cannot differenciate zuo from you.

and i was trying to figure that out.

then blahhs. here came the most idiotiic comment of the year.

-ni de lao shi mei you jiao ni she mo shi zuo shi mo shi you.-

uhhs !! i was totallie insulted.

i feel like insulting him back a thousand sentences in english la.

budd. ren. yes. renning away.

so i was zuo. no. you. you. yes you.

then the driver was like you. you. right. right. issit?!

and i was like uhhs.

darn. the fare was 6 bucks.

i was suppose to go shoppiiing with part of this money. and there it goes.

i pay to get insulted.

how nice.

and whadd the. i could have been late. or not even going to sch. they bluff ppl. they never take attendance.

sat there listening to the talks. and sorry. i carnt help budd erg. the whole way through.

ms poon was so naggy laas.

those classes under her were like released halfhour later?!

shes funny. budd shes long-winded.

whooosh. so sorry exlaogong. i dint bring the planetshakers form thingy. >.<

eva like finally cut her hair.

and yes. i agree. you two look alike laas.

no doubt abt that. just have that hairband on. and -woah. pretty shot there.

ahhs. whaddever.

townned with laopo.

yes. with our hurt legs. we still walked the whole of orchard many many times. from fareast to pacific plaza. to cine. to heeren. to fareast. to wisma. to taka.

ahhs. the list goes on.

yes.

im a sinner. and i hate myself for that.

60bucks gone today.

on a top. that ripcurl bag. the shiny thingy. loads on food

budd im satisfied with today`s products though.

laopo bought the 2 halters. that ripcurl bag. the shiny thingy. herr bikini. little on food. = abt 90+

goodness.

sinners.

spendthrifts.

we got our retribution. whenever we walked down stairs.

we would groan and moan like crazy.

laopo said i sounded like i was in labour.

hohos.

budd cannot help it laas. darn pain canns.

our snack. no. my snack was from auntie annie`s.

woots. pretzel rocks. passion fruit rocks not that much. budd still rocks.

and i saw bihuan and claire laas.

they were not in uniform.

then me and laopo wanted to sit at the taka stairs there and eat.

before that we were looking ard and finding seats.

and i coincidentally saw them.

i couldnt wave at them. cause my hands were loaded with stuffs.

and i just move my loaded hands from side to side.

and smiled. with straws in my mouth.

gross.

and before that met pamela.ernest and someother unknowns at wisma.

pam looked so cute with the sac[?] uniform.

looked like sailormoon. no offense !

yuppers. for lunch we ate at longjohn in fareast.

no one is looking at me eat this time~

and i told her abt -

i think that was the first time i asked someone not in it for advice sorta thing.

yeahhs. whadd she said was so true. i thought of that before.

subsitute.

tell me it aint true.

i shall close my eyes and let everything pass me by.

i dont want to hear the truth.

cause the truth hurts.

i want to hold on.

budd holding on is definetely not the solution.

im just letting my mind run.

2005-02-24T20:03:00.000+08:00

2 days without you.

kept wonder whadd you were doing.

my mind is so screwed.

i was like thinking. hrmms. when is the sms going to arrive.

so rubbish.

then wanted to sms. nayys. you cannot reply also.

missyouloads.

tml is the 25th.

happy one month.

im celebrating it without you.

with who?

with myself.

)':

hope you remembered though.

2005-02-24T19:58:00.000+08:00

wed. 230205

i saw you walking off. and obviously you din see mee.

i was at the opposite end of where you were.

never mind that.

sheeesh. whyye you came so late.

budd thankfully. i saw you on the way to class. thanks to my late studying and walking darn slowly.

and then seeing you again after my pe. your recess.

came to school dammn early this morning.

supposedly went to find you budd someone`s not here.

then saw yilan. and talked to her abt her track pants. ahas. darn funny.

ooos. i was holding the hse tee that nicole wanted.

then on the way to courtyard. she suddenly call my name from behind.

ahas. she so funny. her smsses also so cute ones.

i owe her a testimonial.

and before flag raising. me and yuanting were spastiic laas.

we were showing each other each other`s shorts.

hohos.

cause i was weaing her cedar shorts. and she was wearing her sis. or her pri school shorts. plmgs.

yadaas. and she kept telling me not to mess up.

hahas. don worry babe. (:*

aniwaes. history and chi was. ):

im prepared to fail chinese common test.

and that`s the truth.

i din even know how to do ONE of the questions.

reallie. ! not bluffing.

ahhs. i want to cry alreadie laas.

the whole paper was filled with scribbles and cancellation marks.

its an ugly paper.

for history. i din do the first question.

only at the last few minutes. i scribbled some lame sentences.

which was totallie irrevalent.

sadds.

tests were all horrible.

and you are gone.

i din give you whadd i wanted to give you.

i saw the email.

sighs.

i dont want to let go.

i will miss you.

after sch went out with louisa.

this time. it was i waiting for her. not her waiting for me.

almost died under the weight of my bag.

to town we go again.

she is just so mean.

we went to cine to look at my a bag that i wanted.

then she said that the bag was okaes.

budd she told me to walk ard and look for others before i buy.

then i said. the other place which sells the bag that i wanted was in far east.

then she wanted my to buy it from cine.

cause she din want to walk all the way there. and if i din find it. we have to walk all the way back again.

and after buying the bag and walking to fareast three hours later. i saw my most desired bag.

freakk.

same price la. and it was nicer.

bbrrrr.

i could spend like 40bucks in less than 15 mins.

argh. budd i resisted and din buy that top.

haish. im so rubbish.

louisa said i was a spenthrift. cheryl wong too. jinghan too. loads of ppl say that. i carnt help it laas.

shoppiiing is my way to let go off stress. and to forget stuff.

bleahhs.

we ate lunch at longjohn.

no. she looked at me eat.

and at the same time. picking at my fries.

tsk.

everytime im out. the ppl with me will look at me eat.

and they enjoy doing that.

hahas. louisa saw her sch mates.

yuppers. and left town at 615.

and i was supposed to reach my grandma`s hse at 6 for reunion dinner.

how great.

then louisa waited for my bus to arrive.almost. then she left to take her bus.

hees. im dammn touchedd.

love herr laas.

yada yada.

went to the doc`s after dinner.

the docter who looked like mr sun.

he was so haggered and blahhs.

din talk as much rubbish as last time.

my mom was so badd laas.

talking abt spending 50 bucks at the docs. then whadd i must take care of myself..

2005-02-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

science common test was horrible.

the first question and i was alreadie -huhs.

i left a lot of blanks la.

and our beloved science teacher only gave us back the wkshts which are supposed to be tested this morning.

like how great rights? yes. so great.

and she expects us to pass with flying colours when we got nothing to study for? hohos.

i think shes madd.

maths test was. how to say. everybody said it was a killer paper.

yes. it killed me right on the spot.

can do is can do la. budd. donnoe whether its the right method and formulae.

ohhs. and the oh so great quadractic thingy. i only realized it was being tested late last night.

band was. ok.

seokkian and yilan dint come. got some stuff to attend to.

then only left val yani and mee.

as usual. yani had to leave for piano lessons.

so. she left earlier. leaving me sitting all alone there. in the middle of nowhere.

val went to eat or something like that.

so i prac all by myself.

how nice rights? yupps !

-.-

and after that. someone told me something.

which totallie pissed me off. and saddens me..

)':

however. i have nice friends to give advice and stuff.

to that person : stop back-stabbing.

and stop talking bad behind a person`s back.

if you so bu shuang then come tell me straight in the face, if you have the guts that`s it.

gut-less.

stop acting like the are my thousand year old friend.

it totallies scare me off.

imagine how fake can you be la.

i need not have a person like you existing in my life.

i have had enough of fakers.

you are redundant.

go away and stop talking rubbish.

don make me hate someone.

i have decided to ignore you.

2005-02-21T19:56:00.000+08:00

yesterday`s sermon.

marriage and commitment and priorities.

male`s top priority : sex fulfillment.

man`s brain filled mostly with sex.

-reality of life, we girls must accept and understand.

2nd priority : recreational companionship.

-man always looking for playmate.

during courtship. man expects girls to follow them to watch soccer or sports they are interested in. however. after marriage. slacken.

-guys wants girls to follow to follow them wherever they go. budd when they are together. they would surely quarrel.

3rd priority : atractive spouse.

when lady goes out of shape. the guys would question.

guys feel embarassed when seen together.

4th priority : domestic support.

expects wife to stay at home and keep the house clean.

5th priority : attraction.

guys wants the lady to praise him. eg. look good today..

woman`s top priority : affection.

-huggs and kisses

-tell her you love her

-call her during the day

-gifts on special days

-help her with her chores

2nd priority : conversation.

-needs a listening ear to pour out sorrows to.

3rd priority : honesty and openness.

-dont keep secrets. share them with one another.

-then wife can trust you.

4th priority : financial support

5th priority : family commitment

-wants guys to take care of the family.

2005-02-20T12:02:00.000+08:00

nice ; nice.

bad ; bad.

(: ; ):

2005-02-19T01:24:00.000+08:00

ni ke zhi dao.

wo aii nii. xiang ni. nian ni.

shen qing yong bu bian.

2005-02-19T01:10:00.000+08:00

-click.

ouch. that is a sickkening sound.

i hate listening to that sound.

budd i rather me listening to it. then you listening to the dead phone line.

it hurts.

badly.

when you let your imagination runs.

and think of things that are.. maybe coming true.

no.

it wont come to pass.

never.

i dont mean whadd i say.

im just.. feeling green.

and today was a badd day.

budd thankfully my rescuer came.

budd. whadd much help can she give. as in cause she does not even know whadd happened.

i was telling cheryl and inez. whoever comes to my rescue. i will love the person with all my heart.

and yelps. someone appeared when i was walking out of school.

my speed then- 2 seconds per foot.

and she catched up with me.

i glad i have you. my belovedd rescuer.

2005-02-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

ohhs. i realized i spelt my chi name wrongly.

qiuxia.

not quixia.

tsk.

2005-02-16T22:54:00.000+08:00

thankks for that hugg.

i reallie needed it.

whadds wrong with me.

erg.

imgonnasmilelikenthshurtingme.

happy birthday yilan

went seoul garden with yilan and val to celebrate yilan`s birthday.

too bad seokkian cannot make it. her jap laoshi so scary la.

val is a shui tong.

the rate she drinks water is like the rate of me eating.

goodness.

and we kept on eating beef !

woots. rocks.

aiis. we basically just eat meat meat meat. no vege at all.

and the kimchi soup damn nice.

its good being a junior. ppl would cook for you.

ahas. no laas.

yilan damn hilarious la. she wrapped her hand with tissue paper. so that the oil would not spurt and burn her.

then there was this girl who sat beside us. then she was like staring at yilan`s hand. thinking that yilan has fractured her hand or something.

the ice there not so nice. budd. bet sk would be damnn jealous la.

there was strawberry icecream. budd i din touch it at all.

i ate all the other flavors except that okaes.

after eating and sk`s jap lesson. we met her. then walked to fareast. then to hereen.

after a while. val got to leave for tuition.

then i met my dalaogong . !

pia jacqueline chandra zhang ruo lin.

wooos. miss her to bits.

then. she donnoe for whadd reason. pulled me somewhere i donnoe where.

so pangseh yilan sk for a while.

to go meet jonathan. errs. i think jac`s madd.

then. we took pics ! cause coincidentally i brought my cam.

fate. its just fate babe.

went back to find yilan and sk. walkwalk.

then sk got to go for tuition.

so leave the place.

smsed jac and asked her if she wanted to meet.

i want to kill her. shred her to pieces. and burn her butt.

so went pp macs. by someone`s plead.

hees.

studied a lil bit.

left at 8 reached home abt 9

ooopps. i din sms you to say that i safetly reached home.

okaes. im home safetly now. ((:

i owe ppl loads of things.

chem lab is just so a good place to slp.

i tried that. it was kinda comfee..

yu laoshi was so mean during chi.

i was twirling my thumbdrive in my hand. not listening.

then she called me to ans question cause she knew that i was not paying attention.

then i er. ans la. budd my chi sucks. so. she was like.

qiuxia jia you. quixia jia you. quixia jia you.

i was laughing my head off la.

then she talked a lot of crap. whadd next time i talk or present something in chi. then my friends have to be beside me cheering me on.

quixia jia you. qiuxia jia you.

ahhs !!

conclusion: shes a madd teacher.

2005-02-14T23:46:00.000+08:00

just marriedd.

whooosh.

happy valentines everyone out there reading this

(:*

this year. im celebrating valentines day.

officially.

hohos.

so sweet so sweet.

when i saw the gift. i immedaitely wanted to hug and kiss you.

budd. a bit the not conveniant.

iwasjustsmilingtomyself.

all jitters inside of me.

budd im so sorry we carnt spend this valentine together.

i will make it up to you.

defintely.

today was great.

reached sch shuper damn early. to give out prezzies !

those who got the windmills with the ring hung there. laopo. yuanting. eva.

hope your like it yaas? i love that prezzie laas !

eva. your ring is super damn special. you better treasure it okaes. if not i take it back.

then the others who got some socks and stuffs stuffed inside of it. remember ! there is something inside.

and please dont complain that it is one-sided sock. cause i kept the other side la !

ahhs. who got the plaster chocolates must not eat it ! keep it okaes. they are dammn cute canns.

prince ! i like your so called prezzie. they are darn sweet la. you copied out the lyrics !! goodness. *mwahhs.

thankks.

cheryl laopo

wenn`

yuanting.

inez.

eva.

valerie.

seokkian.

yilan.

bihuan.

quincy.

lydia.

pinkks.

prince.

tiffy.

charlene.

deborah.

carmen.

yongen.

jess.

hong.

eugenia.

belle.

louisa.

ahhs. and many others.

my valentines day was spent in sch !

im soooo proud of that.

after band went to toapayou with seokkian.yilan and chinghong.

yupps. we went to eat 'ice' again.

and we itchy backside. ate some other stuffs too.

i shared this plate of friedcarrotcake with chinghong.

she totallies hate vegetables and beansprouts.

shes a meat lover la.

all of us are the ice eaters.

going out after band tml to buy yilan`s prezzie with sk.

sheeesh.

im broke. again.

valentines` day gifts have robbed me of my wealth.

i want to slp. i need to slp.

im still sick. and im passing my germs to everybody ard me. -quoted from someone. i donnoe who.

miss you ; want you

need you ; love you

2005-02-11T23:56:00.000+08:00

my legs hurt like hell in the morning.

dreads la. i don wann to start the running-to-school routine again la.

getting later day by day.

today. when i reached sch. my legs pratically cramp until cannot cramp.

and pls. i was having that damn cough.

stuffing strepsils down my throat in the morning. somemore no breakfast.

then almost forgotten yuanting`s letter.

then during assembly not supposed to sit.

waliaos. i was cursing and swearing under my breath la.

and the whole day was coughing till my face turn red.

and my eyeballs almost come out. grr.

- this is whadd i called a screwed day.

everything goes wrong la.

freakk.

after school today was supposed to go to cheryl`s hse for the hm econs thing.

budden she suddenly got dance.

my laopo so poor tyng.

she always dreads.

then inez see i going-to-die face. cause she knows that i donn wann to go home and face the -home. and i got no where to go. and like she said. homeless. so she asked me go out walkwalk with herr and my exlaogong. and my prince. and quincy.

waa. and she said my expression immediately changed la.

and she was laughing and laughing herr head off.

dammn.

then. after school. abt to leave.

eva was like. i wann to pon trainning. go out with me.

then i huhs.

then blahblahblah. got her to go for training.

then i left.

woots. at first going town. then. aiyahh. go j8 la. nearer.

ate at deli. and can ppl stop saying i eat very slow?! and stop saying that i have small mouth?! and that whadd say i very dainty.

blahhs.

and they kept on teasing me for donnoe whaddever reason la.

ggrrrrrs.

knocks all of your heads.

then bought some vday gifts.

erg. the list is like everlasting.

then walkwalk.

everybody keep suan-ing me la.

i say this is nice. and they would say its ugly.

fine. bully a sick person la.

and when i think that the shirt dammn nice. then inez say. you veh rich hor.

pahhs.

expllode.

walk somemore. then lichu and quincy had to go home le.

left me exlaogong and inez.

i dammn extra canns.

they two donnoe gao whadd affair.

in front of me somemore.

made me super jealous and angry.

and then. they kept on saying whadd i alreadie have so many affairs.

pahh.

dammn offended.

then they both had to go.

and eva wanted to meet me.

she sprained her ankle. it was swollen and she kept denying the fact.

and inez kindly waited for me till she arrived.

then we walkwalk.

i hate ppl watching me eat la.

everybody does that to me.

and inez lost her file. whole file.

poor herr la. help her check with the food court. not there. everywhere. not there.

went home feeling dammn horrible la.

on the bus. thoughts just ran through my mind.

someone doubted me. dint trust me.

budd. i don blame you. cause i myself also ask me whyye things like that happen.

am i that badd a person to be with.

am i that hard to trust.

am i that hard to please.

i hurt you times and again.

i din meant it.

reallie.

me and the other person are not together.

we are 2 single souls in this world. just having a lil more fate than others to meet each other.

don doubt me anymore.

believe in me. and i will not be unhappy.

2005-02-11T22:47:00.000+08:00

updates:

im currently sick.

got even worse today.

now got no voice.

cny was horrible.

dragging myself all ard singapore.

with a body almost decomposing.

erg.

budd my father`s red packet contents dammn cute.

ask me if you wanna know.

and my cousin`s hse dammn haunted la.

freakk !

she experienced it.

and i was sleeping in her room before she told me la.

goodness.

on cny eve. went back cps.

ahhhs! i totallie miss my dalaogong la!

i loveeee herr to bits.

the doggie you gave got your smell !

don say im sick. budd its true.

sorry i pangsehhed you babe. to go out with *you.

cedarians all over the place.

turn left turn right.look up. look down. everywhere.

-smacks forehead -covers face - runs away

sit properly. if not later get caught on phone.

uh ohhs. not nicce.

>.<

2005-02-11T21:49:00.000+08:00

lichu just said sometyng to mee.

am i that an important person to herr.?

lichu asked if we were very close.

then i said. erms. okaes la. not that.

then she said. budd she turns to you a lot.

then i omg.

quite true..

she like alwaes turn to me when shes sadd. when she wannts to hurt herrself.

and i would just tell herr.

dont disappoint me okaes.

and she does not do it.

i hope.

sheeesh.

donnoe laas.

how can i be so important to her.

piinky promiise.

talkwhenproblemsarise. cartel.

2005-02-03T11:58:00.000+08:00

` so she said whadds the problem baby.

whadds the problem i donnoe.

well.maybe im in love.(love)

think abt everytyme.

i think about it.

carnt stop thinking `bout it.

` how much longer will it take to cure this.

just to cure it cause i carnt ignore it if its love(love)

makes me wanna turn around and face me budd i dont know

nothing `bout love.

` come on come on.

turn a lil faster.

come on come on

the world will follow after.

come on come on.

because everybody`s after love.

` so i said im a snowball running.

running down into the spring that`s coming all these love

melting under blue skies

belting out sunlight

shimmering love.

` well baby i surrender

to the strawberry icecream

never ever end of all these love.

well i dint mean to do it.

budd there`s no escaping your love.

` these lines of lightning

mean we`re never alone.

never alone. no no

` come on come on

move a lil closer

come on come on

i want to hear you whisper

come on come on

settle down inside my love

` come on come on

jump a little higher

Ccme on come on

if you feel a little lighter

come on come on

we were once

upon a time in love

we're accidentally in love

accidentally in love.

was thinking of this song. then i passed by this blog where this song was playing.

such a coincidentall.

2005-02-02T23:49:00.000+08:00

2/o is so ~~pro~~not.

ms chia was totallie pissed at us canns.

-slam the laptop. pack herr things. walk out.

whadd the heck laas.

that freakkin person who caused it was dammnit.

still asking the whole class whadd happened

like go away laas.

its partially your fault and still come and feign ignorance.

jaslin is super zai.

my ou xiang canns.

she just told that person off.

and she got nothing to say.

just kept quiet.

woots. like finally.

yakkating yakkating away. nonstop.

to that person : stop influencing the monitress yaa.

you coming back on the comm is zlich.zero.non.100% impossible.

i stayed for sectionals with yilan and val.

we shuper diaos. sat at the stairway and practised.

was supposed to meet soekkian at tp after sectionals. budd i smsed herr to late. she left without me la.

aniwaes. i don like strawberry icecream.

budd if you were to buy it for me.

i might considerr eating it though.

the look from herr was weird la. and can you stop laughing at me.

so badd. budd you got your retribution. she was staring at you huhs.

stop eating lemons laas. i squashed all of them into lemon juice. and drank them all up. and you said that she was cute. so i should be the one eating lemons ok.

i love pp macs toilet.

ahas.

budd those stupid guys there so irritating.

*throw slipper.

hohos.

2005-02-01T23:03:00.000+08:00

we filmed the video for syf.

i bet we have to refilm canns.

so messy. nobody was sure of the signals.

blahhs.

ooo. i finally know who is the other lil juniorr of mine.

she looks blur. on the verge of crying. dao. bochap.

tsk.

val was crazy today.

she is not crazy over *aherms anymore.

like i believe herr liddats.

and she kept on kachiaoing me!

she got blubber on herr knees.

blahhs.

on the way back home.

my soul died.

freakkiie.

due to my takeforgranted-ness.

i almost lose my life to that dumb piece of metal.

ahhs. budd whadd she said made me -smilesmilesmile

life with you.

life without you.

so cute so cute.

*you. don eat lemons again okaes.

mwahhs.

2005-02-01T22:19:00.000+08:00

310105. yesterday.

towned with louisa.

i. no we felt like total sinners.

spending over 80buckks in a day.

on i donnoe whadd.

i bought.

-red topshop racer back.

-brown topshop shirt.

-puremilk tank top.

-lydia`s prezzie.

-yuanting`s prezzie.

-valentines` prezzie.

-a blue bagg.

-some small small stuff.

total of abt 80buckks.

sinner.

louisa said that she totallie hates coming out with me.

cause. when she asks me if she should buy that.

i would just say it in a way, where she carnt help herself.budd buy it.

budd. as she said. it was the most fruitful day of shoppiing in history.

buying the mostt stuff. with me ard to help!

then went down to bugis to see skirts.

and that subject brought us to --

yeah yeahhs. say im bitchy. whaddever.

budd we carnt help it la.

same this. same that.

like get a life yaa. and spice it up a lil.

gross me out totallie.

like. be yourself babe!

im copyrighted.registered.and not meant for you to simply copy and paste onto yourself.

budd still. i carnt stand us.

the ppl standing near us were so mortified with us la.

they like look and look at us.

budd we still cannot stop ourself from ~~bitching~~talking.

i love my b1 babe.

2005-01-30T23:58:00.000+08:00

should have went to meet wenn in town.

instead of going for rangers.

i was alone duriing rangers cause jh was admitted into hopsital for suspect of dengue fever.

get well soon yaas?

louiisa! im dying.

i gave that super bored face during the interview with weilin and alvin.

gwad.

they look at me and ask if i had any questions to ask.

then i huh. no.

then duriing the interview with welin.

some guys were watching some teach-you-how-to-play-chim-drums-patterns.

and i was so interested and couldnt help budd turn my head and look.

and when i wasnt looking. i was listening.

and not listening to whadd weilin was saying.

erg.

then cmdr.r is so presurring canns.

-pats shoulder. see you later.

whadd the heck.

and i carnt shirk responsibility rights.

that is so...irresponsible.

and i must set a good example yaas?

cause im like the oldest there.

ggrrrr.

and durinng lunch was haha!

bitching abt --

hohos. laugh till my jaw almost dropped.

gosh. imitating herr is just my source of entertainment.

shes so fake canns.

sshhhh.

and on the way back home.

with my family.

erg.

i can only blast my mp3 music and shut the noise out.

that is my shelter to everything.

budd wenn`s sms made me smile also.

i donnoe whyyes.

when always sometyng badd happens. then herr sms would appear.

tomorrow morning is going to be a happy happy day.

*winkks at evaa.

2005-01-30T01:59:00.000+08:00

wenn`

aha aha aha aha.

lovemelikeyourealliemeantit

you made me smile at the comp like some idiot.

*huggs.

fall on each other. we will definetely be there to support.

(:*

evaa`

piinky promiise.

cannot breakk it yaas?

don hurt yourself babe.

it just hurts me too.

talk talk talk.

who cares whadd the person you 'dislike' says ya?

come find me monday.

2005-01-29T11:58:00.000+08:00

saw renling and sherli after school today.

hahas. so ren reallie turned upp.

and as usuall. buy sa tixS!! haas.

poor tyng laas. 200buckks per person.

eeekks. i miss herr alreadies.

shes so cute.

still cann rmb sec1. hahas. beloved psl who taught us the woaini woaini cheer. and she wanted us to 'sing' to herr.

she gave mee a deep impression. (:

was late for sci period cause came back later after recess.

all cause of that eva. pei herr go find herr. *aherms. eyecandy.

then mrs yfh wanted all those late comers to stand outside classroom.

and give herr an answer. then we huhs? whadd was the question?

aniwaes. we just apologised lorrhs.

i know this is shupper attitude problem. budd.

i din wanted to say sorry.

i just mumbled some words.

erg.

after school went out with wenn.peiting.yongen. yaju.

peiting went to make herr ic.

budd donnoe whadd la. never make.

then we headed down to bugis.

shoppiiing in silence for me.

tangled upp.

i love you still.

for sure.

ill be on your side forever more.

i din know whadd to do.

-heartache.

mine too.

budd i din know whadd to say.

am i feigning ignorance. you might think.

no. im not a hippo.

2005-01-28T23:54:00.000+08:00

whadds wrong manns.

i feel surpressed.

by many things that are going on.

at home. problems are getting worse.

i carnt seem to control my mouth. and i start yelling.

then everybody in the house start yelling back.

budd who started it first? erg.

control jeralyn, control yourself jeralyn.

people. ppl ard me are feeling broken. hurt. depressed. stressed upp. vexed.

i donnoe whadd to do to help.

i can be a good listener. budd giving advice is nono. perhaps in the past. i cann. budd now. im jus as hopeless as yall are.

i reallie feel sadd when i cann do nth to help.

my hearts crying inside.

budd its too highpitch for the human ear to hear it.

only i cann feel it. prehaps the ppl close to me cann hear it.

i dont know.

i love you ppl loads.

it hurts mee to see you ppl like that.

im at a lost.

finding the right words.

putting them in tactful sentences.

watch your expression.

get hurt inside.

put on a brave smile. and pretending nothings hurting me.

comfort you. make you smile.

is there another of me. to do these stuff to me.for me?

sighs. *shrungs

2005-01-27T19:05:00.000+08:00

wenn. im dying at home.

i love the outside.

i want to run away.

2005-01-26T23:47:00.000+08:00

sci and eng test is offically over.

*phews.

i need to pass this 2 tests badly.

pe was haha.

we were doing high jumps.

not that high laas.

ms poon is dammn funny and cute laas.

and kinda...seductive too.

2/o girls should know.

hilarious manns.

bwahhs.!!!

wasted my time after school todae.

budd had funny happenings with laopo.

she stepped on a cockroach.

and she almost cried laas!

then we talked too.

and she asked whyye i like to dao ppl.

bleahhs. cannot help it laas.

born with the dao genes?

perhaps. *raises eyebrow.

yes. that someone.

confessions so funny!

budd. meaningful at the same time.

yupps.

love you loads too.

miss you loads too.

im weak. its true. not.

do you wannt mee too ? i know you do too.

>.<

-gwad.

so rou mahh. *ilu

2005-01-25T20:54:00.000+08:00

cooked pancakes for home econs todae.

it turned out quite okaes laas. still edible.

budd custard totallie sucks.

it tasted exactly just like milk. gross. >.<

ppl who walked during jogging reallie deserved to die okaes.

caused the whole class to run three extra rounds ard the track.

and we were already the last class who reached for jogging.

2/o`05 `s attitude sucks.

its not at all united.

heck it manns.

and today was the first time i ran without stopping..

i din reallie felt that tired after running all that rounds.

((;

woots. im into winking now.

i wink at almost everybody i see in school.

bwaiahhahas.

learnt from yuanting. x

i winked at someone during band todae.

and that someone donnoe do whadd.

until she looked so hilarious.

and so ke aii! haa.

hor? that someone?

yupps. we did drills for like 2 hours?

and the tann make is shupppeerr ugly.

cause the shirt sleeve is so long.

and my skirt aint the shortest skirt ard.

and i din wear the shortest socks today.

ahhhs. not nice alreadie.

wasted my efforts at sentosa.

our mam took us for drills.

who is it? ms low.excedarian. geog teacher of donnoe whichever classes.

tiring. budd shiok.

i mean she is strict and all.

budd... its just so meii.

i bang so hard till my ankle hurts like hell.

who cares. it rocks.

i can play the flute better today!

cause stamina improved or something.

the sound is richer. i can play the shupper long notes without dying.

in all. i cann play better today!

grr. i sound weird today..kookyfied.

*shrungs

science test and eng ta tml.

-dies.

haven study yet.

and i reallie meant it.

2005-01-24T23:39:00.000+08:00

went out with. supposedly with louisa.

budd donnoe how. ernest and supposedly nic came into the picture.

nic had a doctor appointment so he couldnt make it.

which = mee louisa and ernest.

and i was like feeling so extra.

den. louisa said she felt so extra.

whadd nonsense laas.

cedarians rule town. so true manns.

wherever i go. see some cedarians.

and i saw emilia !

i can still remember last year when she asked mee to join ncc.

hahas. ! over my sec1 life. she was reallie a great seniorr.

cause she smiles at mee. and i smile back.

a bit retard la. budd. now shes gone. and i kinda miss her and her smile x

then ernest knew some of the cedarians with herr.

and they were looking. haa!

hilarious manns. and donnoe whyye that ernest kept on walking past them.

aniwaes. we were reallie walking the whole of town.

from one end to the other.

and basically whadd were we doing?

looking for food.

and i always feel like a pigg when im with him. erg.

ernest and i just carnt stop ourselves.

first was lunch. 4bucks on pineapple rice. which din taste that fantastic.

then some thai desert. steam tapioca. 2.5buckks.

then orange julius drink. 3++buckks.

then macs lemon lime drink. 2buckks.

then louisa`s churrooos.

suprisingly i din buy my fave churrooos today. felt like bursting then.

then louisa`s twister fries.

total= more than 10buckks spent on food today.

not counting whadd i ate in school and all.

ohh nooos! -sighs

going out shoppiing for clothes with a guy is the most wrong thing to do.

which = go back to where i went today to buy those clothes that i saw and wanted.

anyone free on fri? *shrungs. no guys pls.

i mean. ernest legs are like looong. and mine aint the longest legs ard.

and i said before. its hard catching up with him.

bwahhs.

i saw this zara skirt that i lurrvve loads okaes.

budd its over 50 buckks.

-faiints. i know im cheapo.

then i saw this topshop shirt also.

-gwad.

im so going back to town someday to get it.

((:

however. im not the richest kiddo around.

)):

i got 13/20 for the maths class test.

how nice? verryyyy nice

*sense the scarsm?

science common test on wed.

god. help me pass.

i reallie reallie reallie need to pass.

eng donnoe whadd test also on wed.

god. also help me pull through.

help me study.

help me concentrate.

can you hear my desperate cry?

im desperate.

im desperate for your touch.

never needed it so much.

2005-01-23T17:02:00.000+08:00

sat. 22th jann.

happy birthday sheeping ((:

met louisa at tp.

both of us were late laas.

then headed down to town.

woots.

i bought this racer back.

its greeenn. mind you.

and lu wanted the light blue wann.

haha. budd someone was like so broke. hohos.

then i bought valentine`s day card alreadies!

bwahhs. only 2 cards.

who is it for? *innocent eyes.

budd i still need to buy another 2-3 more cards.

and that 2 cards alreadie cost abt 9buckks.

then someone wanted to meet someone. so i.the poor girl have to like be the bigggg dian deng pao. i almost rolled my eyes to death.

then i told lu that i wanted to call someone out. so that it i wont be bored.

then that mean girl was like. you wann to call who huhs??

-gosh. that instant moment was to smack herr face and throw herr into the busy traffic in orchard. and then she would get smashed totallie. when shes alreadie so flat.

ok. that is so mean. stop it stop it.

back to the point. so we met ernest at citylink mall.

woots. i dint know that city hall got tyngs to shop.

gooddiiie. a new place to explore and shop!!

gosh. that guy got long leggs okaes.

so hard catching up with him.

though i trained my leg muscles by walking extremely fast to sch when im late. i still cannot catch up.

cause. he is another one late person.

aniwaes. we shopped here shopped there.

went into topshop.

he was in topmen. and we in the girls section.

then. he like finished looking so fast. and walked out.

as he thought that we left alreadie.

when we were still inside looking.

pls laas. girls spent more time yaas?

and. aiyah.long story.

growls. hungry hungry !!

went coldstorage? giant? donnoe. to look for food.

manns. the sushi was tempting. mouth watering.

in the end. only ernest bought food. a huge! chicken leg.

the way he eat is horrifying !

like some cave men who haven eaten for days.

*shivers at the thought.

we were suppose to meet the youths at cityhall mrt station at 530.

budden we were kinda lost. and walked extremely fast.so 15 mins late.

and then -pah!

the youths walked the same route which we walked back.

and louisa was whinning.

haa.

budd a bit the dumb yaas.?

walking so damn fast to meet them. budden we could actually just waited for them at the place where we were.

so diaos okaes.

then took a bus down to tanjong katong.

ate katong laksa. authentic?

search me.

budd the portion was so pathetic.

don say ernest feeling hungry. even i was not even half full after eating a bowl of that laksa.

me and lu was disturbed by the damn flies.

felt like smacking them to their death instantly.

after dinner. walked to corner stone church for the ignite youth conference`05

actually i din have a much great impression of them.

like. i donnoe how to say. budd. just don feel too good abt it.

*shrungs.

there was 3 pastors who came up to talk before the 'real' preacher preached.

then we were like huhs? whadd is going on manns.

*wide eyed.

and then. ammy fainted in the toilet!! gwad.

budd i was not there with herr.

she was siting beside me during the conference. and i dint even realized.

only when she wanted to go to the toilet that i realized that she was kinda pale.

then. she fainted. ahhhs!

its kinda my fault..

then glenn hyperventilated. aiyah. not surprised.

he alwaes hyperventilate. during the RAP youth camp also.

casualties casualties.

the conference thingy ended at 11++

and i was alreadie yawning every sec.

took bus 14 with jael jamin and shawn to bedok interchange to take bus home.

jael alighted first.

i was asking jamin whadd time was the last bus. and he said it with full confidence that the last bus was at abt 0030.

ok then. goodiie. still got loads of time.

reached bedok interchange at abt 1130++

still got time rights? grab a bite.

we finished eating at abt close to midnight.

and then. we realized that the last bus was at 11. not at 0000!

how great rights?

-strangles jamin.

hohos. aiyah. no choice. cabbed back.

went to jamin hse first. then shawn. then mine.

i was like hoping the taxi driver is the honest kind. and not that kind of typical jkp[jikopei].

thankkfully. i reached home safely. at abt 0030.

surprisingly. my mom was alreadie asleep.

then. jamin smsed to see wether i reached home alreadie. and not missing.

ya la ya la.

hahas.

watched some teevee. then went to slp.

slept at 1++. wake up att 8++ for church.

*yawns

mee and ammy are certified gossipers of the -ahhyo-fling hand- person.

muahahhas.

*winks.

2005-01-23T16:12:00.000+08:00

friday. 21st jann.

went to ttsh to visit wanying.

with val. seokkian. yilan. yani.

wanying was going to be discharged on that day.-gosh. i saw a skinny babe.

and she reallie look like herr mom. ahhhhs. miss herr loads.

the card was so cute okaes. pasted our neoprints there.

then i got a scare of my life.

on the way out. val cramps got worse.

then when we were siting outside.

she suddenly faint.

bwahhs. i like din know whadd to do canns.

actually i din know that she fainted. till i realized that she was limp.

and partially leaning on mee.

budd thankk god. she regain consiouness soon.

i was like val val val. you ok? you ok?

and in my mind was. god ! help! help!!

woah. first time someone fainted infront of mee..

yilan and sk sent herr home.

and accorrding to her. shes fine now (:

then i headed down to toapayou to meet louisa and lynette and thomas.

and then to harbourfront mrt station.

we were like so late canns. those last few who arived.

ate lunch at harbourfront mall. and bought some stuff to last us for later.

after a long and tedious ride of the bus.monorail. and feet torture.

we finally reach tanjong beach!

it was sunny ! the right weather for tanning.

the sand was so pricky. and...stony.

it like poked a thousand million holes in my feet.

after we settled down. we played the first game.

the secret number game. budd you are not suppose to guess that number.

everybody must hold a cup of seawater.

and if you guessed that number.

-splash.

everybody`s cup of sea water would be on you.

and i was one of those victims okaes.

the rules: do not throw at the face area.

and they violated the rules.

bleahhs. i tasted salty. hair. body. clothes. everywhere.

second game: dog and bone.

there were altogether 8 items.

1 bone. 3 powder bottles. a fan to fan of the powder. and some other stuff.

and rachel liu kept on calling my number-2 !!

bwahhs.

and there was one time she called 2,4,6

and i was the only girl there! all the others were guys.

and so. i was just standing outside the 'circle' of powdery guys.

laughing my head off at the stupidity of it.

and hey! no one borther taking the bone.

so i juz took it and ran back.

hohos.

budd not that easy laas. a price to pay : a scratch on my back.

pastor alvin used the fan to 'touch' mee.

budd instead. it scratched mee.

therefore. there is this ugly 3cm scar on my back now.

no wonder i felt pain on my back throughout the day.

and rachel wong got powdered so much!

that her top layer of skin was powder.

and she got grey hair too. so farnie canns.!

third game : touch rugby.

ahhhs. the game was so confusing canns.

i was like running away from the rugbyball instead of catching it.

our caregrp only have one guy-kevin.

pathetic okaes !!

aiyahh. budd he is the rugby guy laas.

just when we got the hang of the game. next game.

did we win? *shrungs.

fourth game : frisbee

aiyoo. our team so laoya.

we all got butter fingers. cannot catch the frisbee.

and kept on dropping it.

ahh ahh ahh. -drops on the floor.

i bet i looked stupid okaes.

budd kinda fun after a while.

last game : sandcastle competition

again. our grp. famous for its laoya-ty. got no ideas.

we din know whadd to build.

at first we wanted to dig this hole. then that hole is the toilet bowl.

and we can just roll some sand to become shit.

budd. unsuccessful.

and nicholas kept insisting that we build the leaf with stem thingy.

bwahhs.! -throws back head in laughter.

and loads of farnie ideas came up.

in the end. it was just a flower.

yupps. grace`s team won.

budd i thought the jesus-resurected idea was pretty neat.

though marcus was screaming his head of cause of the sand irritating his whole body. [he was piled up with sand]

then rest and relax.

we watched the guys do flips above the water.

quite entertaining. budd after a while.

nahhs. tanning time!

so. we just sat in the middle of the beach. tanning.

we dint wann to lie down though.

now. my back is tanner than my front. and this time. surprisingly my face din change colour.

only the shoulders. back. and arms.

my arms have 3 shades of colour.

the shoulder part is shupper tann. then the upper arm is shupper pale. then the elbow and below was just tan. =ugly

after the mopping ard. wash up time!

the toilet there was horible. dark.ugly.smelly.crowded.

so louisa and i followed rachelwong valencia denise and ammy to palawan beach toilet to bathe.

woah. that place was nice. not crowded. full of light. and not smelly.

when i came out of the toilet and looked into the mirror. i got a shock of my life laas. black.

budd i think it should have alreadie faded off by now. ?

then we met the others at the busstop and went to watch the musical fountain thingy.

budd. we couldnt make it for the 740 show. and they asked us to wait for another hour for the next show. like no!!

so we walked all the way back to the vistor arrival area and took the shuttle back to harbourfront mrt station.

we were puzzled at the amount of indian guys at sentosa.

dinner time !!!

some went yoshi. some went pastmania.

me. louisa. ammy. denise. rachaelliu and wong. eric. shawn. jamin. ernest. louis. nicholas. glenn. ate at pastamania.

erg. so damn full canns. the cream and all the cheese. *pukes.

budd some piggy opposite me aka ernest. was not at all full.

he ate denise and ammy`s leftovers. then he went to buy brownies with icecream at 2buckks !!!!!!

like -gwad. i was drooling. budd no. cannot eat.

then that dumbb ernest and jamin started tempting mee.

blah blah blah. ok. fine.

i eat laas.

and they delighted in teasing me for the rest of the day.

met the others at macs for some fellowshipping. and phototaking.

then byebye !

we took up like the whole 2 rows of seats in the mrt.

went tp to take 8. with jamin.

yes. and we were just complaining abt parents.

his father shupper hilarious laas.

reached home at abt close to 12 midnight.

as usual. my mom was nagging again.

2005-01-20T21:40:00.000+08:00

well. i couldnt tell you

whyye she felt that way

she felt it everyday.

and i couldnt help herr

i just watched herr make the same mistakes again.

whadds wrong whadds wrong now?

too many too many problems

dont know where she belong

where she belongs.

she wants to go home

budd nobody`s home

theres where she lies broken inside

theres no place to go

no place to go

to dry her eyes

broken inside.

open your eyes and look outside

find the reasons whyye youuve been rejected

and now you carnt find whadd youuve left behind.

be strong be strong now

too many too many problems

dont know where she belongs.

where she belongs.

she wants to go home

budd nobody`s home

thats where she lies broken inside

theres no place to go

no place to go

to dry herr eyes

broken inside.

herr feelings she hides

herr dreams she carnt find

shes losing herr mind

shes falling behind

and she carnt find herr place

shes losing herr faith

shes falling from grace

shes all over the place, yeahh.

x nobody`s home.

2005-01-20T21:21:00.000+08:00

a state of depression.

a state of confusion.

a state of angerr.

a state of disappointment.

a state of loneliness.

a state of confused emotions.

please just go away.

2005-01-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

happy birthday ronald !

2005-01-19T22:18:00.000+08:00

the day before yesterday was wanying`s birthday.

and she got admitted into hospital. again.

)):

the day before yesterday. i cut my hair.

in far east. by nick.

hrmms. im kinda satisfied with my hair now.

met lichu and lydia coincidentally at far east.

and we did our hmwk together in kfc after all the walking.

the day before yesterday. i ate my fave churrooos.

cinammon and sugar.

and i ate them again today at far east.

went out with wenn and peiting to buy yongeun`s prezzie.

*wenn likes to sit anywhere. everywhere on the streets.

reached home late.

and wenn was so sadds. cause she has a flathead.

hohos. !

i like flattening your hair ! (:

woots. im missed by someone. x

gosh. went to town. and met ernest. again.

gwad. so concidental. the other tyme also.

ohhs. and he was with nic too.

and i met rachel woon too.

all in the same place. longjohn.

2005-01-18T21:30:00.000+08:00

stressed upp.

gggrrrrrr.

go away laas stupid mop.

i so wann to smack your face.

you think you some kinda superstar.

*pukes and dies.

im mortified.

[sms mee ok?]

waliaos. you think i your gf or whadd.

i know you wann that to happen rights.

no way.

2005-01-16T23:13:00.000+08:00

i hereby announce that tanhk sucks to the core okaes.

he shall be presented the most lousiest maths teacher award `05

and be condemmed.

grrrrr.

so pissifying.

started my maths hmwk in the night.

and i realized that. -piang.

i knew nth.

i mean i understand whadd he say. yada yada.

budd. i juz don understand!!

my gwad.

im contridicting myself.

aiyahh. those who know him should understand the plight im in now.

budd thank god. i got a relatively smart sis. and a shupper smart father to enlighten the poor mee.

i almost cried okaes.

sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks.

haa.

science another roars!!! one.

pulled like a thousand strands of hair out of my scalp.

budd still no help.

gosh. i so need tuition.

not that i want it. budd i need it.

ohh. and chinese too.

even though i have tuition.

budd. i think it is like off no help to mee okaes.

sheeeesh.

shouldnt have taken higher chi.

torture myself only.

carnt help it that i never take hmt in pri school laas.

and now. teacher talk. i huhs?? ohhs. like that arrhs. ok lorrhs. *shrungs shoulders.

goodness mee!!!!!

someone save me.

2005-01-16T11:19:00.000+08:00

grrrrr. rangers is like so horrifying now.

we[me and jh] are like the oldest there?

and we have to lead those tiny ones.

and how to say...they are unleadable?

ahhhs. i don make sense!

yaas. and that miaomiao was so stepping on my toes.

perhaps literally.

i wasnt feeling the best of mee okaes. and there she was. going against everytyng i said or suggested.

aniwaes. the story:

we were suppose to come up with a yell and song.

then as the oldest there. you have to think

so. yeah. thought of it. like finally according to pastor kok.cause i was juz stoning there before that.

then that miaomiao said that it does not go right.

blahblahblah. change to sometyng more powerful.

yada yada yada.

the yell and song juz goes this way! you carnt change the way it goes. the tune. or whadd!

gwad.

not that i dont want to accept her suggestions.

budd. it is like totallie out of the point ok. !

and .

forget it.

forgive and forget.

ggggrrrrrr.

2005-01-13T20:41:00.000+08:00

boyfriend ar boyfriend..

youu don so sadd kaes. and don hate yourself kaes.?!

erms. juz have to accept it.

and think on the bright side that some kind soul would return whadd rightfully belongs to youu.

budd that person who took your wallet reallie deserves to die.

and i carnt believe that we sat that for like a hour then we realized that the wallet was gone..

so sorry that i was of no help.

seeing you so sadd. my xin tong also.

recover faster yaas?

i don like to see your sadden face.

aiyahhs. those sickening idiotic ite guys so disgusting.

go look in the mirror first lorrhs.

ahhhhhs. budd i still carnt believe you were laughing instead of helping mee laas. >.<

2005-01-13T20:02:00.000+08:00

went out with wenn todae.

to buy birthday prezzies.

shes so aii mei okaes.

first thing she did when we reached cine was to go to the toilet to style herr hair.

and we were laughing at some bunch of white uni girls.

wenn was so glad. cause she made heads turn after claying her hair.

tsk.

we ate at yoshi. and i dint know that there was a students meal.

gosh. im slow laas.

then we headed down to heeren.

took neoprints. turn out quite okaes. budd some so spas.

it was after we finished designing then wenn realized that herr wallet was gone. cause she left it below the screen..then she forgotten to take it.

and it was gone.

she was so sadds kaes. and there was nth we could do..

except hoping that that dreaded person would return it asap.

then she went to ask ard.

and she asked this ite guy.

and after all the crap. he asked for my phone no.

sheeesh. i almost died there okaes.

then wenn turned her back and started laughing.

waliaos. i wann to box herr.

budd in the end i was giving herr the gosh-help!!- look.

then she helped me reject.

woots.my ou siang.

ahhs. like louisa said. im so vulnerable. erg.

bought yongen and ronald`s birthday prezzies alreadies.

boyfriend: huggs you tight tight.

2005-01-12T19:46:00.000+08:00

shut up louisa. jealous issit. go away.

ronald ; hrmms. upp to youu yaas? your birthday also coming soon !

ws ; hahas. i thought youu forgotten. broke my heart. budd jacqueline reallie forgotten !! im like so gonna smack herr. roars.

cheryl chew ; ahhs. i like so miss youu though we meet everday. sighs. i donnoe laas. like got so much to tell youu budd i juz donnoe how to put it across. sadds.

thankks for the birthday wishes !

where are you..

where is everybody..

2005-01-11T18:39:00.000+08:00

(: ):

2005-01-11T18:04:00.000+08:00

thankks all who wished happy birthday to mee yaas?

louisa ; you were the first! at 0002. hahas.

wen ; i lurrve the card. omg. the content so farnie. i died of laughter okaes. you reallie meant whadd you say arrhs..

cheryl chew ; ooooos. i lurrve your prezzie! woots. pink pig.

yuanting ; yaas! both of us don look like those who wear watch.! hahas. so true so true !!

inez ; thanks for the choco yaas. haha.

belle ; i cannot tagg youu. hahas. your prezzie very useful. hohos.

sp ; thankks for the 'cotton wool' !

suting ; ahhs. i will never forget you. you are so sweet. x)

yongen ; hahas. now i know the farnie story behind the prezzie you bought.

bi huan ; thankks. ! the first prezzie i received is from youu

marli ; ahma. you will alwaes be my ahmama!

wanning ; i know you wann mee to grow fat! so cute the doughnut and nunaiping !

lichu ; hahas. i din know i was your pwincess. so i must say you are my prince?

eva and tiffy ; hahas. your so cute. my ear hole close alreadie laas. budd i still like it. wait till i pierce again then i wear it okaes?

yilan and chinghong ; whyye your write chewhsia?! spoil the wrapper. tsk.

joy ; my gosh. your gift lie you said is so practical.hohos. 50buckks. yaas. whadd you said is so true. i reallie thank god for youu. cause you are alwaes there for me. though we alwaes quarrel over trifle tyngs. gees.

and many others. like deborahh.who wished 3 tymes.! hohos.

rachael; eugenia; my didi.yanhui; yunhuey; jinghan; abi; husna; hannui; estee; kianhui; zhongrong; kanshee; samantha; lynette; jonathan; arthur; ..and still many others!

yelps. yall help mee brighten my day today ((:

* mwahhs.

2005-01-10T18:01:00.000+08:00

i so totallie screwed my drill test.

val and kate was my tester.

and i was the last to be tested.

then while waiting for my turn. i was alone in that 1p classroom canns.

being alone causes youu to think abt loads of tyngs.

erg.

all alone. listening to those mldds ppl outside practising screaming their hearts out. how amusing.

anywaes.so screwed !! long story.

the first command i already did wrong.

if you wann to know. ask mee.

so maluating to post it here.

then also got many others.

manns.

my corpse is in the 1i classroom.

those who care. cann go claim it.

i died many tymes todae.

abt 7 tymes in class. and 5 tymes during the drill test.

2005-01-09T16:54:00.000+08:00

wen

it is youu.

youu who not made mee cry.

budd instead the first to care.

thankks a lot.

reallie lurvve youu loads.

i donnoe budd i juz wann to talk to youu.

thanks jess sp and yani.

2005-01-05T20:59:00.000+08:00

so heng todae.

got called by joan chia to do the history presentation.

den end up. not enuff tyme.

hohos.

we were suppose to do this chi tyng on the comp. budden i told mdn er that i don have the hanshen software.

then she was so good okaes. she like help us think of a solution. (:

not like some other teacher who don even care at all.

then induction rehersal todae was like *yawns

we sat there like we are the sec1`s. listening to suresh talk.

tsk. so dammnit boring laas.

and val was. not in the bestest mood.

aiyahhs. she was stressed over the conducting and her *aherms.

ahhhs. then after she saw herr *aherms she was not much in a badd mood.

budd still..

then yilan and yani got their auditions !

waliaos. yilan shupper pro canns. all ticks. no blanks at all okaes.

urg. *faiints.

woots. i got the band uni back.

budd claire said that the tailor will make my uni again.

so after induction. im to return to her the uni.

and i think that the shirt she lent mee stinks canns.

i wonder who wore it before mee. hrmms..

okaes. don be shock. im starting to like band. ! hohos.

budd dance will alwaes be in mee still. ((:*

2005-01-05T18:57:00.000+08:00

reply taggs.

wen ; tan han kiang? whadd is he like? tell mee!! budd i think that he is still ok.

; aiyahh. that guy is so shupper horrible okaes. don talk abt him.

; hohos. and i would choose you over him okaes. you are so much better. and i cann see youu like almost everyday. and you are so much better looking than him. more shuai than him also. (:

; whyye youu so sadd? don like that okaes? muz smile :) and i like to see your shuai smiling face !

; left without you? where gots? don have !

chuchu train ; you! i like your hair. i like your roxy bag. roars!!

louisa ; aiyahh. youu are like almost laughing to death everyday. tsk.

cheryl chew ; yaa.! my laopo (:*

; yupps. she stays there. hohos. so observant ! and i din think dirty ok. >.<

jess ; hey. don say that kaes. you are reallie great ! and who will hate youu laas. definetely not mee.

zhong ; not farnie ok. tsk.

2005-01-03T16:21:00.000+08:00

erg. louisa help!! im like being harrased by the mop. he is so irritating. saying all sorts of rubbish. like im cute. omg. like i so wanna die alreadie. den he said he was sorry to pester mee on msn. and i wanted to say. glad that you know that. budd i controlled myself. then i acted blur. saying huh? blahblahblah. then he asked again. then i said so? *bish. then he started talking all sorts of nonsense. like sec2 must studie hard. i mean if other ppl say that to mee. i will have no badd feelings. budd he saying that to mee. i cann die. he makes mee think that he is preaching lorrhs. tsk. and suddenly he asked mee whadd i thought of him! yuckks! and i said: errs. normal guy? he consolled himself by saying: ok. not that badd. like whadd the?! roars!!! yuckks.

he is so not my cup of tea ok.

2005-01-03T16:08:00.000+08:00

ferrst day of school and im back home so early! like 3++

and i was not late for school todae. *claps hands.

i reached on time okaes. mujia was later than mee.!

teachers:

form teacher, music ; naomi chye

eng ; tan suet ferng

higher chi ; mrs er

maths ; tan han kiang

science ; yeo foong ha

lit ; peh lai wah

geog ; vivien koh / regina zhou

history ; joan chia

pe ; poon pui fun

like half of the teachers we donnoe them. tsk.

naomi chye`s not that badd laas. quite humurous.

i managed to finish all my hmwk last night (:

deb got mee the roxy wallet from aussie.! cheaper than sing buckks. budd must dig into my pocket money to pay herr back still. =x

after school was hectic. must go find ppl to give the prezzies to. then now we are on the second level. carnt run across the building. must go one bigg round. mah fan.

woooos~ so fun so fun.!

budd still. must get myself ready to pia thiis whole year through.!

2005-01-02T02:09:00.000+08:00

reply taggs

michelle ; like when were youu so holy? hrmms. i guess those bible verses scared youu rights? the revalation ones.

louisa ; never mind laas. ((: my blog cann only see that day`s post. so it would be gone after i blog again. unless ppl see my archive. hohos.

and yupps. i know whos those ppl. (: B1

cheryl chew ; yaas! we like never see each other this whole mth except on the sec1 cca orientation day. boos.

chuchu train ; no laas. not that. last time canns. budd now i cannot read tag-board..

jinghan ; i got no choice lorrhs. i prefer tag-board though. budd i juz cannot see them!

cheryl chew ; yupps. smart gurll. budd i dint write the cheers and the wahaha word. wooos. seeing youu in less than 30 hrs tyme !

louisa ; okaes. i understand. don worry! hohos. juz rmb the big bangel tyng and laugh!!! know whadd i mean? gees-

2005-01-02T01:46:00.000+08:00

happy new year `05

new year. everytyng afresh.

watchnight was kinda fun. budd some parts were -dang

in others words. *yawns.

okaes. no offense though.

and i reduced to doing my hmwk. literature-animal farm by george orwell.

everyone was like commenting on that book.

like how hard it was to understand it.. blahhs.

and god punished mee for doing hmwk during service.

by making mee forget to take my books home.

i left the books in the main hall. hope its still there. or andrew chan kept it.

tsk.

before that met louisa at tp. i was a bit late. budd not that late.

long story anywaes.

then we blew the ballooons for the deco for service. the machine was haha!

making hell of a noise.

we did it for a few hours. budd in a few mins. everyone burst the balloons with toothpicks after the countdown.

roars. budd i guess that`s the fun of it yaas.?

*pia-ing hmwk.

*going to explode

PAH.

*exploded.

2004-12-31T13:45:00.000+08:00

us again ! ((:

2004-12-31T13:43:00.000+08:00

from top: michelle;mee from bottom: cheryl;jinghan;louisa

2004-12-31T13:31:00.000+08:00

reply taggs.

cheryl wong ; im blogging! hohos.

lichu ; oOos. so sorry. cause i cannot see tag-board. thats the reason whyye i changed my board to doodleboard.

so. to all out there. i cannot tag tag-boards. so yall wont see my trace there. so sorry.

wen ; ahahhas. your clar so hard to blow. budd you so pro! manage to play a scale on the flute! *claps hands.

not my fault okaes [ >.< ] i also wanted to get a gold for syf dance.budd..

cheryl chew ; nahhs. end up rain. then also never go swimming..

ernest ; oh please. tsk

ronald ; hohos. ((:

jamin ; haha. so you managed to find my blog..

2004-12-30T14:27:00.000+08:00

last band prac today.

budd so. have band in less than a week`s time.

roars.

on the way home was totall horrible.

wenqi and sheeping started bulleying mee. again.

hohos.

then talk to wen abt dance and other stuffs.

yaas..

might be going to swim tml.

then accompany my sis to church earlier to decorate the church for watchnight service.

dadadas.

2004-12-30T14:10:00.000+08:00

i feel like smacking someone`s face.

2004-12-29T18:02:00.000+08:00

sec 1`05 cca exibition

hoho.

mee[dehs] and pinks[wanning] were siaox.

we were running ard the whole place.

and when the sec3 band-ers played some song.

we shakked our butts.

*jiggles.

pinks so dan siao.

she wanns to approach the sec1s budden when we walk nearer to them.

she will pull mee away and say so paisei.

whakakakas.

yeahhs!

then met cheryl!

we talked loads okaes.

catch up on each other`s life.

hoho.

long talk laas.

budd i had to clear upp the cca booth.

so. talk soon!

woohoo~

and she cut her fringe. almost couldnt reconigze herr.

sk left like so early.at 10. so i was all alone for the rest of the hours.

gees.

and when i was downstairs with pinks. i left my flute on the macs table.

thankks for those ppl who took care of it for mee ! (:

we got our band uniform today.

are we suppose to get the sliver shirt with the skirt and the jacket?

cause i don have it.

are we suppose to get 2 skirts?

cause i have 2.

*shrungs.

the woman was madd when she took measurements.

she expected us to wear the skirt above the belly button. !!!!!?!??

hohoho.

joke of the century.

like so dammnit toot canns?

and now the skirt is superr tight

roars.

2004-12-29T16:19:00.000+08:00

went out yesterday with inez.

suppose to meet at novena mrt station at 1130.

budd 1130 i was still at eunos mrt station.

aniwaes. both of us were late laas.

cause inez thought she lost her wallet.

false alarm.

they we went long john to find yuqian.

and before we sat down or anytyng.

she asked us to accompany herr to cold storage to buy sugar.

dangs.

blahhs.

and i passed herr herr prezzie.

woohoo~

then we ate at long john.

seeing herr work so farnie.

whahahhas.

*laugh my head off.

we refused to join herr queue.

then our queue this lady in front of us spilled her drink.

blahhs.

then yuqian was like. see laa.who ask your don join my queue.

yadayadayada.

knocks herr head.

this stupid indian guy siting beside us. shupper irritating.

look look look. smack your face

novena is 100% nth to shop laas.

headed down to town.

and i bought a orange and brown bikini.

couldnt find tankini.

and those which were so-so nice was like abt 70 buckks?!

*faiints.

need for next year`s swimming lesson.

then..bought my school bag too.

lurvve it. its red and black.

budd when i opened it at home.

i realized that it was quite short. cause the strap is short.

so look kinda -toot-

blahhs!!!

ohh my goodness.

erg.

or issit ive grew taller..

or issit compared to my other bagg. its short.

hrmms. those who know. knows that my black bag is shupper long.

almost to my calfs.

ahhhhhs!

please don look at mee next year in school.

i will box your eyes.

dig your eyes.

and cook em.

2004-12-29T15:50:00.000+08:00

dadada.roars !

christmas

nth much went on.

.gave out prezzies.

received prezzies.

the whole main sanctuary was filled with brittle bone ppl.

so. practically all the youth were at the 3rd level.

boxing day

churchh.

hoho.we skipped rangers.

louisa.cheryl.michelle.jinghan.me

and went to watch movie at shaw plaza.

the phantom of the opera.

intelligent show rights.

the others went to watch kungfu.

woohoo~quite a nice show x)

after the show it was not early. not late.

budd we headed down to town

and i wasnt wearing the nicest thing ok.

some black pmk shirt. with some pink skirt.yuckks. i felt like dying. erg.

far east then hereen.

took neoprints.

haha.tight squeeze inside. x)

yadayada.

jh went home at abt 6

then we all went yoshinoya for dinner.

my turn to smack louisa.

shes reallie confused.

budd i don think youu are now rights?

update mee okaes?

2004-12-29T15:39:00.000+08:00

23 dec. sunday sch outing

roars

band in the morning.

roars.

met louisa and cheryl at tp interchange. [same place]

*yawns

they were so like late.

and i thought i was the one who`s late.

erg.

town.

bought the gift for gift exchange.

some hang-on-the-door-and-make-youu-laugh thing.

actually suppose to buy jamin and shawn`s prezzie.

budden they appeared out of nowhere.

roars.

at delifrance. i was eating and ppl were looking.

and picking at my food.

*wash your hands first. thank you.

on the way to the mrt met christina rachel wong and liu.

*faiints.

headed to marina bay mrt.

i was totallie freakked by the mop

*runs away.

shawn gave out his christmas prezzies.

and he dint even wrap those prezzies.

whahahahhahahs.

jh prezzie was totallie..haa [no offence (: ]

at the place. we got this stupid place at the back.

everybody`s smoke is like blowing towards us?!

stinky. and hot.

i was in sch uni mind you.

gift exchange.

louisa got my gift. whahahs.

she was like with mee when i bought it?!

and the price tag wasnt even off.

i am so fated with jh okaes.

i got her prezzie.

then everyone was feeling bloated.

budd louisa and i were not even a lil bit full.

and i kept drinking the msg-filled soup

jamin is a great protector. hohos.

great chef too.

we had ice-cream after that.

and michelle`s joke was horrendously disgusting.

ohh my goodnesss.

i almost died laughing.

we walked to the bowlling alley to bowl.

and on the way there. michelle was like tooting ppl`s butt with herr christmas prezzie from shawn.

smack her face la.

and i also wann to smack siakhui`s face.

acting like a totall gay.

*roll eyes.

michelle was the loser of all the games we played.

lowest score. whahahhahs.

mine was average.

whaas! michelle slipped on the alley floor.

whahahhas.

*bumpp. floor crackks.

hohoho.

shawn jamin and i were like running to the mrt station.

cause we dint wann to miss our last bus home at 1130

and we managed to catch the 1115 bus.

tsktsk.

walking home alone is like killing me mentally.

ji ko pei[s] lurking in the corner.

bwahhs.

2004-12-22T15:05:00.000+08:00

roar roar roar roar roar

don mind mee.

i like roaring at ppl nowadays.

michelle couldnt stand mee.

roar

erg.

2004-12-22T14:54:00.000+08:00

im like so going to die at home.

last last last night was totallie horrible.

i was on the verge off puking. then it got stuck there.

nothing comes out except gastric juices.

disgusting.

then temperature shot up.

and i still went for band on mon.

wenqi sheeping all bulleying mee. they wanted to pull the strings. *aherms.

then we also had drills.

which like worsen it?

cough all the germs into wanying`s beloved flute.

drank all sk`s water.

still go and meet joylynn in town.

halfway cannot stand it.

she asked mee to go home first.

yaa. whadd a great idea.

almost fainted on the way home.

38.8

now my brain is bonkers.

i stayed home all day yesterday wrapping prezzies.

almost dieded.

i counted. over 40 prezzies in totall.

*faiints.

now im so pro in gift wrapping.

and ohh. the sunday school dinner outing is posponed till 23 dec. thur

cause we donnoe when is jh coming back.

and i din know they change the timing till cheryl told mee online.

and there is a gift exchange.

omg.

and i dint know that too till louisa told mee over the phone last night.

bwahhs.

how am i supposed to find a decent prezzie when im confined at home so that i would not spread my germs to the outside wurll?!

and on thur itself i have band in the morning.

hoho. i would be santa that day!

aniwaes. thur suppose to have the water baptisim interview in church.

budd after long consideration. i decided that im not after all that ready.

so..that shall be one of myy 2005`s new year resolution. !

*take note.

my trace on msn would be gone. and also on tag boards. and also in friendster.

till a miracle happens.

cause. virus detected and my father went to block those few urls.

bwah!

pissed.

cries.

roar

2004-12-22T14:35:00.000+08:00

18 dec 2004

suppose to meet louisa and lynette at j8 at 12.

they were shupper horribly late.

and i thought i was kinda late.

and i got a shock of my life when i saw glenn.

haa.

i finally bought the tortise!

happy. *claps hands

and some other prezzies.

lynette was so farnie.

she din wann to pay for the toothpick thing with cash card.

cause it only cause abt 3buckks?

and she got no cash.

so. she paid my things for mee. and i returned herr cash.

hoho.

when we were at toa payou interchange. waiting for bus 145.

we met hazel and paul.

then when we were boarding the bus. we saw michelle and cheryl behind the queue.

suchha coincidental.

and loads of ppl was wearing blackk and the youth camp tee.

the gift exchange was farnie la.

we had the evil gift exchange.

mabeline got my prezzie.

cheryl was so disappointed with herr gift la.

travel toothbrush and toothpaste set.

i got some squeeshie chicken who squeeshes out an egg?!

louisa got michelle`s gift.

ernest`s mom`s chocolate cake was so..rich and fattening.

budd it was nice !

kenny so badd. ask mee take food for him. and i was like so clumsy.

cause its hard balancing two plates on one hand?!

hoho. then there comes along a damsel-in-distress guy.

ronald.

wahahahhas.

he helped mee help kenny take food.

he`s so gentleman.

thats all i cann say! (: [jh. don be madd.][no offense]

then we went town with all the youth ppl.

we like practically din do any good shoppiiing.

cause in a big grp. its hard to do solid shoppiiing.

dadada.

did we eat dinner? carnt remember.

aniwaes. shop till 10+

then we fellowshiped outside scotts shoppiiing mall.

then we went in to coffee bean to fellowship.

talktalk chatchat.

reached home at 1130+

*yawns.

cann life get any more interesting

2004-12-22T14:14:00.000+08:00

17 dec 2004

reached church on time ! at 2.

did loads of admin work and stuffs like that..

blahhs.

then we headed down to town !

woots.

the performance was great.

budd a lil bit on the soft side yaas?

hazel so cute!

when she was on stage. she kept on winking at showing all herr farnie faces to mee.

and i was down there laughing my head off.

haa!

after the performance. we went to eat with them.

actually we wanted to eat at sakura thai.

budd the queue was horrible.

in the end. we ate at burger king.

and they kept on teasing mee and yi shun laa.

erg.

almost died there.

the others wanted to go suntec to shop till midnight.

budd mee louisa cheryl lynette thomas and glenn stayed in town.

budd it was like already close to 10?!

yupps. so we din shop muchh.

slpt in the bus. hoho.

reached home at abt 11 laas..

2004-12-16T20:32:00.000+08:00

heyys. wenqi seniorr.

im not notii kaess. i turned upp today.!

partially cause got audition x)

i failed auditions. results not out yet budd im sure of it.

booboos. !

hoho. your passwordd so kweet. x

actually i was feeling quite confident. budd sir smashhed my self-esteem. im so....smashhed by him.

whadd rubbish. erg.

went to church to do the 15hrs tyng.

and i was late. again.

bwahhs.

i carnt stop being late lorrhs.

actually i purposely woked upp earlier. budden donnoe whyye still..

never mind.

church was so crowded. all the a.r were theres.

glenn was still being his irritating self. erg.

ya. i realized how working ppl are so..stressed upp..

going church tml again.

then on the night we will make our way to orchard to support faithians !

bwahhs. budd still donnoe whadd they performing.

haha.

i still need to do christmas shoppiiing.

2004-12-16T01:54:00.000+08:00

went out with bitchy partner numberr1. louisa

i carnt help it if im like half and hour late.

sorry.

budd youu hadd a great tyme dealing with the jikopeis rights.

bwiahahahs.

quote " i met one jiko (old man pervert?) while waiting for jeralyn (half hour!!) he peeped into the woman's (next to me) blouse. well. it was little bit low cut at the back. in fact it was not. but he peeped anyway. don't see any fun in tt. pah. after jerall arrived (after i practically fainted and was pissed off.).." unquote from louisa`s blogg.

then we went to return my overdued books. and jikopei number2 appears.

erg. and he is a yellowed[?!] bogay.

he asked us for change to take bus somewhere. gaylang i think.

-thats sounds a bit mean. nevermind.

then we said no. and he kept on asking.

we walked away. fast.

we circled him. i on the left side and louisa on the right side.

-wrong move.

he turned and asked louisa where we were going.

louisa`s reaction: quote " you know what i did? i was appalled at my actions. i turned behind, said 'huh' in a very mean way and rolled my eyes so hard at him. unintentionally. it just came out. i didn't know. but anyway good for him. harassing young girls when he should be like, getting a dental job." unquote.

we headed down to heeren.

shop shop shop shop.

like ohh my goodness.

i so carnt stand stinkin last level of heeren.

it stinks totallie lorrhs.!

i felt like puking.

last sun also got that same..ugly smell.

it smells like..all the rotten smells in the world added together.

budd it seems like im the only one covering my nose and mouth.

everybody seems fine with that yucks smell.

erg. they are all not human.

aiiii. back to the point.

we bought mass gifts.

they cheated us of our money canns.

on the way to cine. we saw shawn.rachel woon. engseng. joyce.

like....err..h.hhiii?

that scene was so awkard.

i was caught by surprise. cause i was describing how nice cine was to louisa. with my farnie actions.

yaas. at yoshinoya. louisa set mee into heaps of laughter.

herr miso soup cap cannot open.

then we were laughing at this guy who was trying to open his stuckked bowl capp too.

he was like puting his ear near to the top.

then after much struggle. he managed to open it la.

budd i think he scalded his ear. and hands too.

then there was this irritating lil mommy`s boy.

the mom helpfully helped the boy open the soup. then it accidentally spilled onto the boy.

and plz lo. he was so dry.

i think the mom was wetter than him.

and he was screamming his head off at the mom.

smack his mouth ar. total brat.

blahhs.

we walked back to heereen after shopping there.

to see my tortise. hoho.

budd ended up taking neoprints. hurhur.

and got to smell the smelly smell again. erg.

third jikopei of the day: somerset mrt de carpark.

quote " we were walking and talking towards somerset mrt (through the carpark) then this khaki shirted guy was like tailing us so near LOR. practically stuck to our plastic bags of presents already. then i felt disgusted then i linked arms with jeralyn and walked really fast to the escalator to the mrt. he followed in the same speed. yuck. then down the escalator, he was behind us. STUCK to us. mind you. ok. then when we were walking through the 'corridor' he tailed so near. so jeralyn and i tried to act silly and disgusting 'cause she pointed out the damsel-in-distress whistle the entire jamm gang has (jinghan, michelle, jeralyn and i) then i pretended and i said, 'wah, your boyfriend give one ah. let me see. so nice. wooo.. ' *tries to be annoying as usual so as to lose the pervert* we then slowed down because of the so called so nice whistle then he walked in front of us laas. wadd a freak. and he kept turning behind and looking at our faces. I felt like smacking him!!! ugh. tt's the fun part laa.: unquote

we were so fake lorrhs.

'your boyfriend give youu wann arr.' so chao ahlian.

aniwaes. the world`s guys are total chao jiko pei despo-s.

erg. *faiints.

2004-12-14T00:49:00.000+08:00

im pissed.

reallie pissed.

nobody believes.

go and die.

freakk.

2004-12-14T00:32:00.000+08:00

engseng smsed.

juz when i was on the train thinking abt camp juz now.

hes reallie kweet and farnie laas.

and innocent.

hoho.

2004-12-14T00:20:00.000+08:00

louisa.! im also infected by fever.

38.3

totallie horrible and irritating.

i din go for band.

budd i went for guitar lesson.

and by God`s grace. i passed the test.

i was top2 out of we yall 4. hoho

i din touch the guitar for a whole 7days.

and only in the afternoon before i left the hse then i prac a lil bit.

woots. god is greatt manns.

chuchutrain was reallie farnie manns.

she brought herr digi camm with used upp batteries.

*faiints

shes so dammn blurrs laas.

jeremy looked toot with his unkempt hairr.

joylynn came back from cheena. shes rosyy.

kweet.